It's been more than a month since I've been working on a documentary on arranged marriages and the more I get into it...the more scary the idea of marriage seems. I've always wanted to be married and have a house full of snotty, annoying, adorable kids; but now I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. Have you noticed though, that every time you're unsure about something...that something is what you end up doing. It's that whole "things happen when you least expect them to" theory. Scary! But anyway, this whole documentary has been fun, considering I've been to a mass wedding where 11 couples got married on the same stage and the food for 7000 people was cooked under a shed in the most unhygienic way possible. And another mass wedding where 4 brothers got married and the wedding was shot like a super expensive TV serial with jimmy jibs swaying this way and that AND an online editing system. Seriously! I was flabbergasted! And then we shot at a Catholic wedding where the couple renewed their vows after 25 years. It was a fun party with lots of wine, cake and merriment.
It's funny how I'm hardly home these days, and I find myself stealing time to read some fanfiction or watch my favourite shows. Shivani joked the other day about how I'm working later than she is...and that girl works like a mad woman. I don't recognize the life I've been living the past month and half. But I'm not complaining. I haven't had the time for a lot of things, and a lot of people, but there's this feeling of satisfaction and I don't feel incompetent any more. And the best part is...I work with two of the coolest women I know. They've been the best bosses so far.
Last weekend Muggle muffin and Thumbelino got married. It's been something I've been excited about from the start and to see them get married made me unbelievably happy. Their's, is a fairytale I'd like to see happening to me too. I hope to grow old and gray with them, and share more insane memories with them. They make me believe in love a little bit more now. Disclaimer- It could happen to you too :)
Then I had the post wedding blues. I went into that nasty little shell, where I started worrying about how I'd never find anyone and I'd be that lonely old cat lady with my worn out dildo, that I keep joking about. I was so blue that when I found this little diamond ring abandoned in my drawer, I picked it up, slipped it onto my ring finger and decided that I wanted to feel engaged. And then I laughed. Is this really ME? No way! It felt good though, in a weird way, wearing that ring and imagining being engaged to someone. But I realise now, it's not so much about being engaged or married. It's just about having that one person in your life that makes it a little extra special. I guess it's going to take me a long long long time to find that person, and I hope he'll be worth the wait. Till then I'll just watch FIFA and drool over the men.
FIFA always makes me happy. It's the only time I watch football, or any sport for that matter. I've watched pretty much every match...and by now I'm so confused that I don't know which player belongs to which team. It's been an interesting year for Fifa, considering all the top teams are playing like amateurs and all the underdogs are ruling the field. And the men...oh the men only get hotter every bloody time. I love watching the game with my Mum, simply because I think she checks out the men as much as I do.
Speaking of Fifa, I've missed about 20 minutes of the Spain-Chile game, since I've been here writing this. Must go. Villa just scored the most insane goal of the World Cup!!!!
I hope I'm back here soon with interesting things to tell. Au revoir!
